What do you do with DISAPPOINTMENTS?

Well, since my last post alot has changed.  On April 2 I was out for an easy run with my friend and nearing the end of the run I started having pain.  Within 1km I could no longer run and barely put weight on my foot.  It took three weeks but I found out I suffered a stress fracture and my race plans were CANCELLED.

I was DISAPPOINTED :(  My next thoughts turned to The Weekend To End Breast Cancer that I have participated in for three years, this is my fourth.  It is coming up June 6-8.  Could I walk it?  Would I be able to with the lack of training??  Would I do more long-term damage??

These are the questions I am currently asking myself.  I have now decided that doing the full 60k would not be wise.  I am hopeful that I will be able to participate in the one day at some level.  This again is DISAPPOINTING as I believe this will be my last year.  I wanted to have an over-the-top year.

So what does that mean?  RE-FOCUS!  It's not the end of the world...so what can I do with my limitations at this current time?  I will do what I can...

My HEART has continue to be stirred with PASSIONS that are in me for so many more things.  My DESIRES are to come alongside others and help them be the best they can be.  So for now, I will continue to be hopeful for June 7th...but regardless I am THANKFUL for the others that I can pour into.

My daughter is participating in the very first KidK for Cancer and I will SUPPORT her BIGTIME!  She will honour her grandmother and many others as she walks 5k to help raise awareness and to find a cure.  So far she has raised 5x the amount she is required.

So how do I handle my disappointments?  RE-FOCUS on what you CAN do....process it through dialogue with my spouse or good friend and then MOVE ON :-)

I once heard a story about a donkey stuck in a well.  The farmer was not able to get it out, so in order to put it out of it's misery he started to fill the well with dirt.  The donkey was making a terrible noise and was probably very afraid...over time the noise stopped and the farmer kept filling the well with dirt.  Eventually, the donkey stepped up and out of the well.  You see, the dirt would fall on the donkeys back...the donkey shook it off and stepped up onto the dirt.  He continued this until he was able to get out!!

So SHAKE IT OFF....STEP UP and get OUT of what ever has DISAPPOINTED you!!!

Training for the Half

Well,  I have to say....so far the hardest thing about training for the 1/2 marathon in May was making the commitment!  I have been feeling pretty good overall and have consistently been running 5 days a week, increasing my mileage by only 10% but I have been increasing it consistently.

I have been all consumed with reading everything I can about running, racing, fueling the body, training properly, etc., etc.  I've even pulled out special stetching and receipes ideas.

This past week I feel as though I'm now more or less in to a routine.  The only real changes will be getting back outside AND increasing my long runs.

Through this entire process I have to say I have the most AMAZING husband!!!  He is extremely encouraging and will bend over backwards to help me with EVERYTHING!!  I haven't asked him to do anything but he sees something needs to be done, and does it!  It has really helped me to stick to my plan!!  So THANK YOU babe for making it easier for me to accomplish this goal!

I'm continuing to balance the things in my life so I can train BUT I'm also trying to study in the areas of my passions.  This is my next goal for this month!  If I set the goal and have a plan in place, then I know things will get done!!!

Until next time!

Commitments

I don't know about you, BUT I usually need a commitment to get me motivated.  I am comfortable sitting on the sidelines, observing, for a time :-)  Speaking spiritually and physically, I usually do not go very far without committing.  

The beginning of this year I "committed" to a 40 day fast to help me re-focus and re-direct my goals for 2009.  It was AMAZING!  I have gained so much more clarity in the things that I am SUPPOSED to be focussing on for this season of my life.

I have also gained more passion for living well, spiritually and physically.  To do my part in being healthy, mind, body and spirit.  Feeding those areas with good things, and avoiding the bad.

As a way to help me stay committed to running, I have recently signed up to do a 1/2 marathon in May.  Must TRAIN!  I LOVE the challenge and appreciate the push (thanks Julie!).  My running buddies, Julie and Kim will motivate me and encourage me when I need it.  I LOVE the quality time spent with them when we get the chance to get out and run together, but also just talking about all the stuff associated with running!!

During the fast, I looked at food in a completely different way.  I chose to really try and learn how to feed my body properly.  In order to run healthy, my muscles need certain foods...for endurance and for recovery.  It's been quite educational.

AND last but not least, I'm feeding my brain well.  I have been spending way less time with t.v. and so much more time reading!  Recently, I've decided to take a course through OSB to continue learning about the things I'm passionate about (people, personalities and spiritual gifts!)

Until next time,